Going to Be Wiser

To be kind is not enough. In order to be useful you need to be wise too.

I really don't know why I repeated the previous mistake. I should not rely on my friends. It's really comforting to have a reliable one to confabulate, but it makes you awfully weak, specially when you are enduring somehow similar pains.

Every time I rely on a friend in my problems, I become very breakable and sensitive. Whenever I do this, I break down.

I should set up my relationship with my friends. I need to make my private space much wider. Nobody won't enter in. I should manage by own.

And I know that I can. All the time that I've been alone to resolve my problem, I've handled relatively well! I've found out that I always know the best solution better than the others. But I don't know why I do not count on myself sometimes.

In some situations, I stupidly try to put my own mind down. My mind warns me that my friend's concern and sympathetic and even their offers is not true, but I don't care at all. And then my problem goes to be worse and worse, and I become weaker and weaker!

Yes! I should manage my self on my own. I can manage my emotions wisely. I would let my heart get heavy, grieve or even cry, but I won't let it control me!

It isn't the first time I'm testing myself. Every time, I count on myself and do not speak about my problem to anyone, I think far more better and get off the hook very soon!

In some issues, I'm really the only one who can help myself.

A Bud

I was little free and wondering what I can do.

It was a good idea to update my blog!

The good point to say is that today I was really talkative in my morning class.

The lesson was about inventions and I knew enough about one of these inventions: World Wide Web!

During the class I spoke a piece about Internet usage, surfing the webs, social network services specially Facebook and Friendfeed, also about the cyber army and Iranian hackers. Further about how to find subtitles of the movies in order to help the movie freaks in the class!

I found myself much better than before in speaking. But I think I'm really weak in speaking yet and I need to speak more. I still forget some words whenever I start speaking.

Fortunately I have a good relationship with my classmates and they ask me their questions as the best classmate. After all I got the best score at the midterm exam! ;)

My Teacher showed her satisfaction of my writing these way: "It was very good. Very good"!

And I know that this blog really helps me to write in correct way and learning some new words and remembering the words I've used here easily.

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The above passage was written on Monday. And yesterday, when I was chatting a friend in English, I made lots of mistakes! Somehow a disaster! :D

But actually I think It was not that bad at least for early chats.

I'm really eager to learn much faster than now. I wish I had a good partner to workout...

New Day

Guess what?!

I love the paragraphs starting with "Guess what?". It's full of energy. Isn't it?

Remember when I wrote I'm tired of doing nothing and how boring the life is and so on? It was almost a month ago. And now I don't have even time to do homework of my classes!

I think after years I finally got the job I'm really interested in. Of course I loved most of careers I've ever had, but this is an exception!

It's a job which deals with teenagers, beside the lovely and believer coworkers, lots of creativity and things to learn, with a strong cultural and educational base, and the most important part is a very skilled and experienced interior manager.

Thursday I had a difficult interview with the general manager and the interior manager who was the one recommended me to them. And yesterday I started my work.

My position is something like the expert of cultural and social affairs. It needs lots of thoughts, creativity, providence, study, search and far too energy and of course patience.

Oh! How anxious I am! What if I can't manage the tasks? What if the workspace would not be what I had thought? ...

Hey! Why am I not concerned about them not be pleased with my work? :D Good point, eh? At least I'm so confident about myself!

Anyhow for a while, I will work with the expert manager whom I'm really admiring. This is a great chance to learn many things from his experience and rich information, and to grow my moral and professional qualities.

Oh God! Help me, Please! Help me to adjust my classes, my works and my personal life and to do my best!